dave wrote to me today on the root cause of laziness. dave, take us through it.
"perhaps the idea of starting a new project and all that it entails (what with the work and all) is creating a certain level of anxiety. and maybe this anxiety is just some logic fault that manifests emotionally as fear. perhaps a fear of failure. and maybe this is what i have and why it is that i've been so reluctant to go into work as of lately. on the one hand you have anxiety and an irrational fear of failure. and tugging at you from the other end of the spectrum is a feeling of guilt..."
and how. the difficult part is finding the beginning, finding the thread that, when followed, will lead to the grand prize. some people, like max cohen in pi are born to rave quietly to themselves in their apartments and in lonely coffee shop booths. and more power to them.
the rest of us are the unaware, the babies with thumbs in mouths. we don't have the cosmic drive or the divine hand leading us to the truth. instead, we have a bird's eye view of a chaotic world. we're consumed with complete and total indifference. who are we to try to tame it? why does it feel like our responsibility?
of course, those who can't fall into the leather couch with a bordeaux and a book every now and then are doomed. those people who can't bring peace into their lives are the same ones who drill holes in their skulls or light their cats on fire. i'm kind of glad that i can go through life a step behind if i so choose. sometimes, we feel the need to sprint to the finish. more often than not, we just like to breathe and let things happen. i mean, they're going to whether we like it or not, right?
Posted by snackfight at July 5, 2002 07:29 PM